DON'T GO WASTING YOUR EMOTION, LAY ALL YOUR LOVE ON ME

october 3, 2020 changed my life forever. words will never be able to capture the kind of impact you've made on my life, but i can try. you know i've been dabbling in writing anyway.

you know that life has been so unkind to me. you know what i've been through, the kind of torment that tore me apart and forced me to put myself back together all wrong. the kind of things that make a person volatile, unstable, unpleasant to be around. the kind of things that make a person unlovable.

you love me anyway.

you've seen my teeth and claws and the blood that stains them. you've seen me at my worst. the worst my mind has wrought, the worst i've been towards both myself and you. my faults and my ugliness.

you love me anyway.

ikaw ang ilaw na nag-gagabay ng mga mandaragat pauwi, kahit malala ang bagyo. ikaw ang unang sinag ng araw pagkatapos ng isang napakahabang gabi na punong-puno ng bangungot. ikaw ang ilaw ng isang tagapagligtas ng mga nakulong sa dilim ng kweba. ikaw ang apoy sa ginaw, ang tubig sa kainitan. ikaw ang buo kong daigdig.

mahal kita. mamahalin kita magpakailanman.